Okay, I'm going public and admitting that I'm pretty weird. To the people who know me well, this isn't much of a revelation. But I've had a horrible case of blogger's block. My last blog post was on Valentines Day...so 6 months ago. It's not that in the last 6 months I haven't had anything to say. I'm a pretty opinionated person. But every now and then I get hit with something close to shyness. I feel like blogging will make me completely open and exposed and it feels like too much. I worry that my opinions will be offensive (which they will be to someone, not everyone will always agree with me), or that people will think that what I'm writing about is stupid (which will also happen), or that my chosen topic wouldn't fit with the whole "learning to follow" theme. But my husband keeps telling me I'm a gifted writer with a story to tell so I've decided to start blogging again.
But here's my disclaimer:
1. I may offend you. Not because I want to be offensive, I actually want the opposite of that. But I can't always walk the middle line. I have opinions and they're not always going to agree with your opinions and that's okay. Part of what God is working on in me lately is being okay with disagreement as long as everyone is respectful. One of my strengths is harmony and because I like harmony so much I will sometimes keep quiet just so there's harmony. God doesn't want me to stay silent on the beliefs and opinions I hold, even if they create some conflict. I just need to handle the conflict in love. Pray for my husband as I grow in this because he'll be the one to hear me obsess when this is hard for me.
2. Not everything I write about is going to be deep or significant. I may write about the silly or the mundane because that is part of life. Sometimes things will strike me funny and I may decide that writing is better than not writing even if it doesn't hold some deep eternal significance. Part of this blogging process is helping me to find my voice or my personal writing style. If you think what I'm writing about is ridiculous you have my permission to stop reading.
3. I've decided that everything fits with the theme of my blog because all of life is useful in learning to follow closer to God. I want to be a 24/7 Christian and so every experience I have is about walking out my faith in the here and now.
So that's my new resolve. I plan to write more and I'm not entirely sure if anyone is around to read any of this anymore after 6 months of silence, but I'm going to write anyway.